I cannot live; unless you do this with me.

I need release. creativity. expression of emotion through something tangible. is it possible to be addicted to that? and art. to convey a meaning, a message, through something someone can see. I've found myself having an obsession with that lately. to pick up a pen and write. or to splatter colored ink across a canvas. or design something on the computer. anything. it's like something inside of me needs that, to feel fufilled almost. something - anything; to show the grace and love of our savior, that is too graphic to words. speaking of which, I have an amazing book recommendation. the ragamuffin gospel: visual edition.

freaking incredible and moving. and the most amazing graphics I have ever seen. totally inspiring. I was like in love with it when I saw it, haha. anyways. yesterday was amazing. too amazing for words. there was so much adrenaline leading up into it, and it was totally worth it. it's amazing to finally have a relationship with God. something real and tangible. and it's sad that not many people really know what that's like, to have true life in christ. and that's why there's elevation, haha. I hate being at a loss for words. it seems like every time I go to blog, I can't think of anything, but every other time I have so many thoughts that won't leave my head. maybe I'll post later tonight.



oh, and go see across the universe. seriously the most amazing movie I have seen in a long time. super artsy and creative. and the beatles songs were redone kinda, and totally awesome. haha, I've been telling everyone to see it. so go see it. I've had the soundtrack spinning all week. haha, okay and I'm back. an hour later to post more. I feel indecisive tonight. I'm listening to angels & airwaves. I forgot how good they were. and they're making me think of like sophomore and junior year of highschool. it's weird how certain music or certain things can bring back up memories. and it's weird to think about how I was so naive then of where I would be now. I almost can't comprehend it, how amazing out God is, and how he knew I would be here now. if you told me a few years ago I would be here and a part of this church and being this blessed, I would have thought you were crazy. but I guess that's just how God works. I have a super long post coming soon, maybe tommorrow :D